Draggin like a droopy diaper

See this?

This my friend, is the face of absolute exhaustion, the face of an overworked woman who goes home everynight and cooks,cleans and takes care of two kids (the baby and the husband)

But what keeps me going? (besides red bull and coffee?)

This does..........

Now if you'll excuse me, while I plummet face first into my key board...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Back in the Swing of Things

Well here we are back again, a new year and a new sense of beginning. The tree is down the presents opened and enjoyed. And my house looks horribly empty, guess it’s time to do some decorating! I cannot wait to get my hands on some serious valentines day craft goodness.
Christmas was great,I spent alot of time with the fam, here are some pics for your enjoyment:
My Sister Dina, my niece Kiera and My father and me

Dad and Hudson

baby with a bow on top! Opening his gifts!

my sister and Niece at dinner at my moms

Passed out after a looong weekend



Our good friends Julia and Randy were nice enough to invite us over for New Years Eve dinner, Julia makes KILLER food and we had a feast of roasted pork, roasted squash, green beans, tasty Garlic Onion Rice, bread and cheesecake for dessert. She even had somewhere for the lil man to snooze while we had some fun, I drank enough to get a headache the next day, but nothing too serious, it was SERIOUSLY worth it. I just looove disaronno. Mmmmmmm

I just love her she is the bestest

Julia and Randys dog Brutus roasting by the fire

The rest of the vacation was spent realizing just how tiring it is to be a stay at home mom! That kid has MAJOR energy. But I definitely enjoyed myself.
My little guy is just growing up so unbelievably fast, he is now sitting up without support, reaches out and grabs things , eats solids three times a day, and seems to be sleeping better.(ever since we got him on a better feeding and nap schedule, he seems to be sleeping WAAY better at night.



Babys new wheels! Vroom Vroom!!

He also appears to be getting into the stranger anxiety stage, he screamed at my father in law last week and started crying (its ok he makes me cry too lol, the father in law not the baby lol) and he cried when my grandmother held him, but along with the screams, come wonderful fits of laughter, the kid laughs at ANYTHING, I was sniffing his diaper the other day, well trying to check to see if he pooped, and he busted up laughing, probably because there I am with my nose near his little bottom and he let go the hugest fart known to baby kind. Lol.(takes after his daddy………ok and his mommy too)
I am hoping this New Year will be better than last, although the highlight of last year was of course the birth of my son. (go me!) but financially the rest of the year sucked BAD. So here is to the New Year, a more fiscally stable pocket book, great health and a flat belly lol.

On Motherhood-Advice

Things that I learned in my first few months of being a new momma.

1. Everyone will feel obligated to give you their advice on child rearing, but none of them or necessarily right, only you can decide what is best for your child. Don’t let these comments drive you into a tailspin; you will find your own path.
2. If someone tells you that you are doing something wrong, just remember, that’s THEIR opinion. If you are in fact doing something the wrong way, you will find out sooner or later and chances are, it wont cause your child any long term issues.
3. Two things never to discuss with other mothers (unless you REALLY want their opinion) breast feeding, and when to start solids. This is up to you, your child and pediatrician, children have an uncanny way of telling you when they need something.
4. You will figure out what your child wants, it won’t always be this hard!
5. You may feel like you will never sleep again….you won’t…at least not for the first few months….but you also won’t even care because there so damn cute.…
6. On returning to work: it will all work out, children are attuned to schedules, they generally fall in to patterns rather quickly. Being consistent about bedtimes when you go back to work will make everything run more smoothly.
7. Trust your instincts, if your pediatrician is telling you he sees nothing wrong with your child but you know deep down something is not right, your probably correct, find another doctor.
8. Another word about doctors: every single one of them has a different opinion from the other, whether it be on feeding or sleep training, take their advice in and decide what is best for you and your family.
9. That cold generally will not kill them, but it may kill you ( up all night with a stuffy nosed little one)
10. Buy a cool mist humidifier in the winter for the babies’ room, even if they aren’t sick, your kid will sleep AWESOME! (but that’s just MY opinion ! )
11. Do not be afraid to use Tylenol for teething, it won’t hurt them and will help them feel better.
12. Listen to those girlfriends who have had children, they may all have different opinions, but they have been through it, and their advice is VALUABLE. I don’t how many times I called friends Michelle or Kristal in the first few months because I was SURE something was majorly wrong (OMG THIS DIAPER RASH IS HORRIBLE! MY CHILDS BUTT IS GOING FALL OFF!!!)
13. Babies cry…yes they do….. and it is not going to kill them to put them down when you get frustrated and walk away, as long they are somewhere safe it is OK to go outside or in another room and compose yourself. Your child WILL BE OK, I promise, I have done it.
14. If your child gets frequent hiccups (like my son does) lay him on his left side next to your knee and rub his head, this stops Hudson's hiccups and he falls asleep…..it’s worth a try.
15. If you need to get stuff done around the house like laundry and dishes and such, strap the kid to the front of you in a baby carrier, they like to look around, and often fall asleep if you keep moving. This is also FANTASTIC exerscise for you!
16. if the baby carrier wont work or they get fussy a lot, keep moving them, from the swing to the bouncer to the bed to the couch ect. Sometimes a change of scenery (or even a ceiling fan for them to stare at,) will do the trick.
17. Every so often at least, get your self dressed, put on some makeup, brush your teeth, and go out for a walk with the baby, you will both feel better.
18. Do not worry about the color of their poop…..believe me it will be many different colors over many different months, it’s all good, your kid is fine.
19. If they haven’t pooped, and it’s been a few days, take their rectal temp. if that doesn’t stimulate it, get a warm washcloth and put it on their butt, this may help them relax and go.
20. And the last one, remember not to get too stressed out, babies love their parents, spend as much time as possible just staring at their sleepy little face, and let things work them selves out, because it will all work it’s self out.

BONUS

21. YOU ARE AN EXCELLENT MOTHER!!!!!!!!!

Growing up

Just 3 short months ago, in what sometimes felt like an eternity, especially during hard times. The most beautiful child in the world (of course in my mind lol) came into my life and changed it forever. Never have I thought I could love one single thing so much, how my heart almost bursts at the thought of him.
His little toothless grin brightens up my entire day in ways that I never deemed possible.
On Oct. 17th he turned 3 months already; I am fascinated with the rate that my little man is growing up.
Half the time he doesn’t want to sit still, but rather stand on his own two feet, of course we have to hold him, but his legs are so strong, and if you put him down on the floor and hold him, he takes small steps. I fear this kid is going to go straight from sitting to running, no crawling lol.
You can see two little bumps under his gums, evidence of his impending teeth, and he chews on everything. He eats like a horse, we started putting a little rice cereal in his bottle because I couldn’t keep the boy satisfied. He seems to really like it.
Looking at him and asking him “who’s my stinky boy?” sends him into a fit of silent giggles every time.

He loves to watch TV although we try not to put him in front of it too often, Him and I watch cartoons on Saturdays and in the mornings during the weekdays he likes to watch Curious George. And absolutely loves to watch football! He seems to be a Cleveland Browns Fan, although I am going to chalk that up to his preference of bright colors, poor kid doesn’t yet know how bad the Browns actually suck.

He also loves to play “flying baby” where I lay on my back and put him on my shins and move them towards my chest, this is also a great way to tone my abs I found out!
He loves to lay on daddies chest and drift off to sleep, and he loves to calm down on mommy shoulder when he is scared or needs a cuddle.
When you put him in his car seat, he plays with this activity bar that we have strung across his car seat, just the past few weeks he really has begun to notice it. Flipping the toys and pressing the buttons, examining each one like an engineer concentrating on a piece of machinery. To watch his little mind work, is unbelievably entertaining.
At the rate that he is growing out of his clothes, I worry that he is growing up too fast, I just wish he would slow down lol. There is so much I never understood until I became a parent. And honestly it’s stuff that you could ONLY understand once you become a parent.
He is our joy and right now there is no place that we would rather be.

Busy Lizzy

his weekend was simply excellent, I got to spend time with my little man and take a few cute photos of him for fall. Here are a few of the many that we took:

This kid loves to be nekkid, LOVES it!

I also did my hair retro style and wore a flower made by Rascal.

I made an attempt, albeit feeble, at painting pumpkins like the ones I saw here. but failed miserably, you were supposed to stipple black paint over a doily used as a template, to create a black lace effect, but the paint smeared :(. next time I may use spray paint, I think it would work out better. Still they turned out kind of creepy! And look nice on the porch!

I also made it to the craft store so that I can start Hudsons fleece bear hat! YAY!

I rounded off the weekend with a sunday dinner at Grandmas. Plus TWO of my friend got engaged! How great is that! Congrats Mary and Ingrid!!

Of tears and teeth..

Teething and a day after shots.This was my weekend.

On Friday I took the babe to the doctors for his two month checkup and of course ,the dreaded shots. i really felt horrible doing this to him because he was so happy when i got home from work to pick him up, and was smiling at the doctor and the nurses, poor little man didn't know what was coming, he got 4 shots! 2 in each thigh! the first one he kind of had this look on his face like (hmm ok what was that?) but by the second one......it was more like (hey what was that?.......wait a minute..... OOOOOOMMMMMMMMGGG GOOOODDDDDDDD!!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH) I felt so bad for him, so what did I do? did I cry? Nope...I laughed at him....how sick is that, my kid is sitting there screaming his lungs out, and i laugh at him. He was just getting so upset, it was almost funny.....god I am a terrible mother lol.

We had a bit of a surprise at the doctors office, he noticed that Hudson was drooling alot, so he asked me how often that happens I said " all the time the kid is like a faucet!" he has also been inconsolably fussy at times when i KNOW it is not his colic, the colic period starts about 4pm and runs until 8pm,but lately he has been getting fussy earlier and earlier and it doesn't really stop.

The doctor looked inside his little mouth and sure enough, he is TEETHING!!!! have you ever heard of a two and a half month old child teething? I mean seriously people, only MY child lol.

He has two bumps right under the skin on top. LOL he chews on everything, including me, and isn't even old enough to hold a teething ring!

The doc seems to think he will have at least one tooth by 4 months!

So this weekend was rather rough, with the reactions he had to the shots (fever, general crankiness) AND the teething, this kid was drugged up and cranked out. hence the picture above, he was so tired yesterday would not take a nap to save his LIFE!!! And when I took that picture he looked just like that, one eye shut , one eye open, staring into space like college kid that's been up all night smoking pot.....except without the munchies, as a matter of fact he wouldn't eat at all, he just wanted to chew on his bottle.

I did mange to make a pumpkin pie and put up fall decorations,but that was about it.

Lets just say as much as I miss my little man today.....I am REALLY glad to be at work :)

colic and colds

it has been a rough few days to say the elast, our little man contracted a cold from thehusband and I about a week ago, and while it is slowly going away, it seems FOREVER!! Poor lil thing sneezes and coughs, and he is just one month under from me being able to give him anything for it, no vapor bath, baby vapor rub, nasal decongestant, nothing until he is three months, wich I admit does at least give his immune system time to build it's self up I guess. But needless to say, there is NO sleep in this house NONE.

I was supposed to go back to work this week, but decided to take one more week off, albiet unpaid. i am glad that I did because last night I was up until 4am watching Cheers episodes because the little man refused to sleep. But the second that today started, and I realzed that I would have to endure one more week of colic and a diminishing baby cold, I began to long for the madness of work, go figure, so when I can I am trying to get all my stuff togethor and outfits pressed, jewelery organized purses cleaned out ect.

Tommorrow I go to my mothers with the baby, I am not looking forward to the 45 minute ride with him in the car, because I usually go def by the time I get there from his crying. But it will be good to get out of the house and go see my parents. ust me Hudson and my Ipod full of Death cab for cutie songs, should prove to be a nice drive otherwise.

And in a good sign that the little man is feeling much better today, the husband and I got some smiles outof him :) I just love smiles on a chubby baby! Totally makes my day.

His daddy made him smile like this :)

lil man is way to kewl for school with mommys Ann Taylor Sunglasses on!

To be a mother....

Sorry this has taken so long to post, I have to write a little bit each time that I have a chance, wich latley hasn't been alot lol, as you can understand, my life now revolves around bottles and diaper changes, cries and baby kisses. and of course not alot of sleep.

here is the story of Hudsons birth.

on Friday the 17th of July I awoke early, made my husband breakfast and we headed to the hospital for our scheduled section. I was so scared the entire drive there, but at the same time I was so compleltely ready to get it over with and meet my little man. Once we got there and got into the prep room, I got out of the wheelchair and compleltely broke down in tears, the pain in my back was so bad I couldn't walk even to the bathroom, even with the assistance of both nurses AND my husband, I wrapped my arms around my husband and cried as he held me and told me it would be over soon.

The nurses came in , hooked up my IV and then the Nurse Athesist,came in and explained everything to me, right off the bat I felt very comfortable with her, wich is a good thing considering she was going to be sticking a huge needle in my spine in a short matter of time.

They had Bill get dressed in his scrubs,and as I was being wheeled off to the OR, I think my sugar may have dropped and I got extremely anxious and fidgety and uncomfortable, it was a horrible feeling, almost like I wanted to jump out of the bed and run, I think it was a mix of fear anxiety and exhaustion, anyways, it was definitaley the worst part.

The OR was freezing,, they had me sit down on the table, wich hurt my back tremendoulsy. I sat straight up with a pillow infront of me , buring my face in the nurses shoulder, as they inserted the numbing agent then the spinal medicine, I began to feel alot of uncomfrotable pressure and stinging, but I just closed my eyes tight and used my yoga breathing to make it through. Then as soon as they said to me "ok your legs will feel warm them numb" my legs did indeed go warm

then numb, almost immediatley, and all that pain that I had in my hips and back for weeks, was gone, iwas relaxed and laid back for the procedure. it is entirley wierd to lay there, not being able to see what it goingon behind the blue sheet, KNOWING that they are cutting you open, hearing the sound of surgical instruments clanging togethor and smelling your burnt skin as the coterize your incision.Bill finally popped in and held my hand, by this pint I was in sort of a daze, they had out morphine into my IV and I was really sleepy.But I heard the radio playing, my doctor talking, the anthestisioligst, asking me if the nursery was done yet, and what were the colors, i answered back :yellow and blue" in a very slurred speech. Then wondered why she asked me that question so suddnely, what was going on behind the blue sheet? What was she trying to devert my focus from? Then I heard my doctor mention that I would be feeling alot of pressure as they tired to push the baby out from my abdomen, but he wouldnt budge, she mentioned that he was logded in my left hip area, wich makes PERFECT sense as to why that side of my back was so messed up for so long, his little head was stuck in there, finally after three nurses pushing on my , he popped out, and was born at 12:22 pm july 17. Approxomatley 6lbs 10 ounces and 19 inches long. Big baby my ass!!! He was a peanut! As they pulled himout I swear i heard my body go "ahhhhhhhh" as though it made a huge sigh of relief.

In short, he is the most perfect loveable little man I have ever laid my eyes on.

He is now almost two months old, is starting to focus intently on things, and smiles at us when we make funny noises or faces. he did for a period have colic, but we found it was linked to a milk allergy. So we put him ont he super mega expensive formula "liquid gold" i call it, because shit at 25 dollars for 12 ounces it might at well be gold, and it is just as valuable, our little guy is WAY happier, and so is his lil tummy. And if any of you have children with colic take this advice BUY GRIPE WATER!!!!! IT WORKS WONDERS!!!!I will update more soon, but this was just an overall "hey there" and to let everyone one know how it all went. Time as you can imgine is limited, when I get back towork I may have more time to update on my lunch breaks. And honestly i am looking forward to that. I have so much more to talk about, breastfedding, emotions,life in general. It'll be good. Well motherhood is now calling at the top of it's little lungs fromt he livingroom, so I need togo, but below are some new picks!!The first week home, look at how tired I look!!

About two weeks ago, with his girlfriend Delany, he doesn't know it yet, but thier getting married....somedayTaken last week, in his bath wich he LOVES!!!!!Tajen a few days ago, he LOVES to stare at the cieling fan!!