Tuesday, December 30, 2008

The year gone by........

So long 2008 eight.......it surely HASN'T been great.....but I did learn alot about my self, and really came into my own. Here are a list of my accomplishments for 2008 ( in no particular order)
1.I let go of the past, and in doing so, freed up my heart. I realized where mulling about what didn't happen hampered what could happen.

2. Got rid of toxic people, be it friends or ungrateful family, I finally cut apron strings with those I was tired of either fighting with or over.

3. I planted a garden and it LIVED!!!! it was my first attempt at creating "life" which leads me the to number 4.....

4. I made a baby! (well it's still baking but I did it!)

5. I emotionally supported my husband after his accident and my mother during her breast cancer treatment, and from that, learned just how much of a powerful force I could be in someones life.

6. I began to worry (just a weee little tad) less about my health, it was to the point of craziness and really getting out of hand. However I do still worry about the ones I love.

7. I kicked my sugar cravings......blame pregnancy...but I was headed down a diabetic road I was so bad ( see theres that health worry popping up again lol)

8. I made myself known at work. I made sure this year to put myself on the map and really get noticed, made friendships and deepened relationships with top people in my company, and even if it never gets me that window office, at least they know my name and know I went down fighting!

9. I got in touch with old friends, and some family I have hardly spoke to before <" Ashley: I am so glad that we connected finally, you are a swell gal and it saddens me that I never knew how cool you really were :) luv you cuz!" as for everyone else, Michelle, Kristal, Tori,Sarah, Mary and anyone whom I have forgotten, it is great to have you all within talking distance again!

10. I turned thirty.....and in the process figured out what really mattered to me all these years.

I don't make resolutions for the new year,they tend not to stick, instead I set private goals. This next year should prove even more changes, and hopefully I will grow even more.

Now if you will excuse me I am going to go dive face first into a rootbeer float that I have been wanting since Sunday lol.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!! May everyone have a great 09!!!

Monday, December 29, 2008

Week 10...WHOA whos boobs are these??

Photo By WhyBuckWhy

So here we are at week ten, only three more weeks until I am out of the first trimester.
The nausea has started to fade away (thank god) although it rears its ugly head sometimes after dinner, but usually only lasts like 10 minutes. My tummy hasn’t gotten any bigger, but I am already in maternity pants because my hips thickened and I can’t button my pants. In other words, my ass got bigger lol.

I realized the other day that I have the breasts of Pamela Anderson after her first implants……Ok there not THAT big, but these are surely not my boobs! However, I will take them while they are on loan to me J

The one thing I learned that you DO NOT talk to people about is breast feeding. I honestly wasn’t sure what I wanted to do, and so I asked a few people what they did, that wasn’t a good idea; I got some really strong criticism. Which sort of ticked me off; because I’m like, hey how can YOU criticize me for what I choose for my child?
What really gets me are people whose opinion I DON’T ask for. The ones (some whom I don’t even know well enough) saying, “Well you ARE going to breast feed right?”
When this comment was first made to me I actually kind of retreated a bit and would say,”ummm uhhh well I guess I mean umm” but now when I hear it I just strike back with “actually I don’t plan on it” or “I still have to discuss what options are best for me with my doctor” Screw it, it’s not their business.


This week should be a fun time, new years eve we are going over to my friend Julia’s to ring in the new year, I cannot wait to have some of her traditional Seipie that she makes for New Years…..mmmmmmmm. It’s like a seven layer pot pie. Tas-ty!
(ok is It just me or did that sound really dirty?)

Then New Years Day my mom and dad are coming to my house for the traditional pork and sauerkraut mmmmmmmmM!!! The rest of the week will probably be spent continuing to strip the paper in the nursery.

Hope you all had a great Christmas!! And a wonderful new year! Mrs. Munster , I want to see some new year’s picks of you having fun with your new camera!!

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Secret Revealed!!

( this post was originally drafted back in November I am posting it now to annouces the enws :) I am currently 10 weeks pregnant, we kept it a secret from our parents up until Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. The next few post were formed within the weeks since we have found out. I stopped posting at the 7th weeks because I became so tired I just had no desire to do anything, but from weeks 8-10 I have started to feel better, Below are the two videos from when we told our mothers, I put a little plastic baby on a cuhsion with a blanket over it in a little box and wrapped it up for each mother. The first one is Bills mother the second one is my mother. Someone please let me know if you are unable to view the videos)

Pregnancy Week 6
Sooooo…remember that Arby’s Beef and Cheddar I wanted last night?
Oh yeah….it’s like that……for the past few weeks I have had that……”I am nauseous…….not wait no I’m not…no wait… I am…yup I am.”…..OOOHHHHHHH Chips!!!!!!” …5 minutes later…..ugh…..chips……..”
Finally last night after coming home and murdering an Arby’s Beef and cheddar combo, I realized, yeah I better take a test. So…I took three……..Hey gotta make damn sure right?
I kind of just stared at it, with my jaw open, we weren’t planning on it RIGHT NOW, more like next August, but I think this a serious blessing, and this is happening for a reason.
I finally got up enough of my motor skills to go down stairs and show the hubby, I showed him and he cried, then I cried and then I laughed, and cried again, then I hyperventilated, and cried again…….then I ate some more French fries.
I know it sounds funny but I actually feel swollen, like my belly is swollen. To quote Heather on “DOOCE” “I can smell your pores” and am sick to my stomach on and off. But am trying to handle it the best I can, due to an ongoing weak stomach, I have felt queasy most of my life, so hopefully that will give me the energy to push through this.
Trying to sleep last night was damn near impossible, first I was freezing then I was lying in a pool of my own sweat, then I had to pee. Then when I finally did fall asleep I had to get up for work lol……welcome to mother hood right?
I haven’t told my parents as of yet, or Bills family, we are keeping it quiet until Christmas Eve. At least we are going to try to keep it that way, which means I have to keep my mouth shut when talking to my mother and seeing her face to face for the next three and a half weeks!!! Holy crap!
See, what we want to do, is this. I am going to go to the craft store, and get two little eenie weenie plastic babies, then I am going to wrap them up in little tiny blankets and put them into a small jewelry box. I will wrap one for my mom and dad and one for Bills mom and dad. And at Christmas when everyone is over, they will open them as gifts!! I hate keeping the secret from my mom for so long, but I really want to wait until I see the doctor and see a beating heart, and know that everything is ok. I go between fits of giggles and crying. It’s crazy lol.
As far cravings are concerned, besides said Roast beef and cheddar sandwich. I have wanted pickles and Green Olives, what I haven’t been able to stomach? Anything with leaves on it, can’t do salad at all L and the though of turkey………….ewwwww………….
So that is were I am at right now, I want to record everything as this is my first pregnancy, and I was going to start separate blog, but I thought, why bother? My blog name means Joy of Life. And this ….well…..this is just the greatest joy that I could hope for.:)
7 Weeks Still nauseous
So now I am wondering if it's possible to be queasy and craving something at the same time? my nausea has been nearly constant, and while no food sounds good to me, when I do get food in front of me and start eating, I feel fine, then back to sick to my stomach directly after.
I called my old friend Michelle last night, and she really made me feel better, she said the feelings that i am having (anxiety,"oh shit what am I going to do") are completely normal. she also told me not to get too attached because I could still miscarry, which has ran in my moms side of the family,so I know the threat of that could be somewhat real, still i try not to worry about it much.

Whats frustrating to me, is how much I feel like complete shit, any woman who says she loves being pregnant needs to be sucker punched because she has to be lying, this is not "awesome" I feel like crap, I don't want to visit friends or go anywhere, not to mention the fact that my parents don't know yet and I have to talk to my mom every day and manage not to tell her about this secret festering inside of me, I mean that takes alot of work to keep that shit in . It's no wonder I nap every day. Even as I sit here I feel like vomiting, but you know what?.......throwing up is too much work!

People keep asking if i am happy and I say "yeah i am, in those brief moments of clarity when I am not freaking out over labor or trying to keep my food down."

So in order to ease my mind, I have been making contact with my gals who have had babies, trying to get the lowdown from them, and although everyone is different, talking to them really helps me to be less scared.

I am going to go cry into a bag of cheetos now, ........then throw them back up.
Week 7 Cont.
I’m starting to feel better, although not physically, but mentally at least, I read DOOCE.com every day, she is only 2 months ahead of me, so I feel I can relate. Today I was so relived to read that she hates being pregnant, “she hates it?.....SERIOUSLY?? People like me exist?” I thought that your supposed to love being pregnant and how much of a woman you feel like and oh what a blessing. Blessing maybe, but for gods sake, what this is doing to my body is hell.
I woke up this morning, swearing to god that I smelled………..Infection…….I know that’s weird but I smell it, and it’s in my nose, I cannot get the smell out, I have tried perfume, everything. NOTHING works.
I also have a terrible intolerance to cold. And living here in Cleveland near a large frozen body of water doesn’t really help that issue.
I walked into work today and my manger asked me how I was feeling (seeing the green look on my face, the saltines and ginger tes in hand) I said “like shit actually” she just laughed and so did a few other women near by, that ticked me off, I was like “whats so funny? WHY is my suffering funny???” that just irks the hell out of me. Lol.
The only thing that seems to be lifting a bit, and this may be due to the Prenatal vitamins I am taking, is my exhaustion, I was able to do far more yesterday that I have been able to do previously, and while I still feel a bit tired, I may actually make it out to visit my Friend Julia’s new house tonight, before coming home and going straight to bed.
Every day that goes by where I do not tell my mom, I pat my self on the back, so far keeping the secret has been rather easy. Hopefully that continues.
I do have one good thing to say about all of this…..last night in a brief reprieve from Nausea, I gorged on Veggie chips and fat free French onion dip, and it was………….the most spectacular thing in the world. Food really does taste tastier when you are pregnant. And I know it may be strange, but music sounds better……any kind of music, I crave music like some women crave pickles lately, and when I hear it, it’s almost orgasmic!

Sunday, December 21, 2008


Sorry I haven't blogged much latley, truth be told I have a reason ;) But that I cannot tell you yet,It will all be made clear next week sometime later in the week, and then trust me, there will be plenty to read :) Have a Merry Christmas! and Happy Chanukah!

Friday, December 12, 2008

R.I.P Bettie

The glorious Miss.Bettie Page died Thursday night at Kindred Hospital in Los Angeles, where she had been on life support since suffering a heart attack Dec. 2,She was 85. Rest in peace doll,you made a huge impact on my life and the life of others, you are in my heart forever.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Two fave fun holiday songs

I really love these two songs, they are my faves ofr fun christmas songs, I like the Christmas Wrapping song sung better by the original waitresses, but eh....The Donnas will have to do.

This is a MUST!!!!! Laugh my tush off every time!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Because I love him!

1. Where did you meet your husband? We met on Match .com!! (see it DOES work for some people!) The first time that we talked on the phone, it was for two hours! Then we decided to meet at The Harry Buffalo for drinks, I shocked him and bought HIM a drink first, afterwards we sat in front of my apartment in his truck listening to Christopher Cross and writing notes on receipts to each other.
2. How long did you date before you got married? For about a year and a half, then we were engaged for two years.

3. How long have you been married? 1 year and 5 months!! (Shannon we must have gotten married fairly close to each other!)

4. What does he do that surprises you? Flowers, like out of nowhere! Or if I am tired or had a bad week, he will take me out to dinner.

5. What is your favorite feature of his? His cute little butt!! And the combo of his black hair and green eyes. ROWR!!!

6. What is his best quality? He is a real take charge kind of guy, and he is sensitive, if something is going wrong, he goes into damage control and survival mode instantly.
7. Does he have a nickname for you? Blondie. Silly girl

8. What is his favorite food? DEFINITLEY Chinese food!!

9. What is his favorite sport? Baseball and Bowling

10. When and where did you first kiss? In his truck in front of my apartment on our first date (yeah I know I’m SOOOOO easy right?)
11. What is your favorite thing to do as a couple? Exploring new places, like if we go to a new city, we love to go to the shops and find cool places to eat, we also love to go Amish Country and gets lots of homemade goodies!
12. Do you have any children? Not…………yet…………
13. Does he have any hidden talents? (LOLOLOL…..well) he is also oddly good at decorating. And real good at photography, which took me some getting used to because I WAS THE ART MAJOR!! I AM SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD AT THAT STUFF L

14. How old is he? 35

15. Who said 'I love you' first? Well it depends on who you ask, one night at bowling, I looked at him across the table and mouthed “your cute” he swore to god I said “I love you” it probably did look like I was saying that. He was the first one to actually come on out and say it.

16. What is his favorite music? Jazz and Alternative hard rock

17. What do you admire most about him? He works very very hard and handles a lot of stuff by himself. I am so very
Proud of him.

18. What is his favorite color? Red or Blue (such the American he is)

19. Will he read this? I believe he makes a pass at my blog now and then J

20. Who will I tag next? Anyone who reads this!