When needs overrun WANTS

I want a pair of new heels

But I NEED a pair of shoes I can walk in

I want a new iphone

But I NEED to pay of some bills first

I want more nail polish

But I NEED to use up what I already have.....

 

I go through this thought process on the daily..

And lately there is one WANT that has been persistent over all the others.

 

I want to stay at home with my child

But I NEED to work because

1. I hold the insurance

2. I have school loans to pay

 

We have always thought that if  we have another child

( another persistent want)

That I would want to stay home, I worked after my son was born and that was tough

very very very tough

I really don't want to work with two little ones at home.

 

We have some time before we plan to make another little miracle.

And I am trying to concentrate on really getting all my bills paid off.

 

My feminist side be damned, I have an inner need to be a stay at home mom, to be fully involved in my children's lives,to be a housewife and make my home

 a great place for my husband and my kid to come home to.

 

It's very hard to feel like I am doing my best job as a wife and mother when I work so much.

I know most women have to work outside the home and alot of things will change if I stay home

• I will be completely dependant on my husband who is already pushed to the limit, this will be tough for me because i am a very bullheaded independent person.

 

• I LOVE to shop, LOVE IT but I would need to find ways to be thriftier and spend less

 

• Could I really stand being at home all day?

 

• I would need to leave my job of 7 years and the new position I have where I make great money

 

Those are all the things that I would really need to think about.

 

But on the up side

• I could bring in extra income by increasing my AVON sales to full time

 

• I could bring in extra income by selling my jewelry

 

• I would be able to be more involved with my child or future children

Be able to be a better wife

 

 

Its a scary decision to make

but I believe that if you really want something, you CAN make it possible.

 

Money is important

But family is more important

your children are only little once

I want to enjoy every moment more.

 

Being a Stay at Home mom is hard hard work, but I'm up for the challenge and my heart wont rest until I accomplish it.

 

I would love to know what you think........